What is a Prayer Facilitator?

What is a Prayer Facilitator?
**TW**  Please be advised that this is an entirely Chr*stian post.                               If you’re pseudo-familiar with my healing journey, you know I don’t work primarily with a DID therapist. I work with people whose formal title would (I guess) be “prayer ...

Currently Reading

Currently Reading
**TW** for some talk about G*d (nothing extensive)   Hey everybody, This is the time of year that’s usually VERY VERY HARD for SRA/RA survivors.  Despite that, because of some amazing recent breakthroughs and etc, I’m doing WELL!  Like really well! Nevertheless, it’s also the busy season at my day job, and I just haven’t ...

Separating Lies from Truth – Negative Beliefs that Keep Us Trapped

Separating Lies from Truth – Negative Beliefs that Keep Us Trapped
I’ve been trying to find time to put this in words for awhile, and time just keeps escaping me. Busy season is coming up for me at work, so hopefully I can get this put out there before everything crashes in on me. Okay, so one thing that a lot of people may not understand ...

“The Shining Man” Review, Part 2

I’m going to try to make this more brief than the previous one. I just want to reiterate what I said yesterday:  Jesus does not force people to do anything they don’t want to do. He doesn’t send his angels to force anyone, either. He doesn’t take alters’ clothes away, or lock them up on ...

Why I Hate “The Shining Man with the Hurt Hands”

Preface: if I lose friends over this post, so be it.  Too many people out there don’t have the guts to have an informed opinion of their own, and be vocal about it, but yet they’ll willingly attack anyone else who has one.  That kind of cowardice may be comfortable for a lot of internet ...

Recovering

It’s been a distressing few weeks, but I’m holding on.  It seems like every upward shift comes with its own opposition. And oftentimes, though there are real external circumstances going haywire, nevertheless the biggest turmoil is internal. Some days, I don’t know how to honorably stand up under it. I think what I’m realizing more and ...

Excerpts from Trapped in the Mirror

I’m hoping to have some time to work on another post about the narcissistic parenting style tonight. In the meantime, Trapped in the Mirror, by Elan Golomb, was something I read years ago. I don’t remember too many specifics, but it cast a very revealing light on a lot of my struggles. I have combined some ...

The Weight of Grief

I’ve been MIA for 2+weeks, and I’m sorry about that.  This post may be all over the map, and mostly I’m just going to tell you what’s up. It won’t be informational. It won’t be helpful. I can’t guarantee it will even be coherent, I’m just checking in so you know what happened to me. ...

The Trouble with Triggers

I realize that talking about triggers might be…um…triggering, but in that vein, I made up something pretty ridiculous in order to tone it down.  And once again, I am trying to work some things out, mentally, so I’m mostly writing to see if I can come to a better conclusion than I had come to ...

Late Night Thoughts – Therapy

Therapy, or “healing,” as we cryptically call it, is a strange thing. You mutually agree, at least for awhile, to have another person be your projection screen, your scratch pad, your mirror, your sounding board, your safe place, your containment, your own personal headspace specialist, your unbiased/ unfiltered (or at least differently filtered) perspective, your ...

Physiological Challenges

So as I wrote about recently, I’ve been making some profound discoveries through Laurence Heller’s book Healing Developmental Trauma. This has brought up several of what would seem to be “side” issues, which nevertheless seem pretty big, so that’s where I’ve been camping out, trying to unpack everything I need to absorb in these places ...

Book Review in progress: Healing Developmental Trauma

Hey everybody. This is a pretty cerebral post (which ironically is a confirmation of my survival style, if you keep reading…haha), so I think we’re safe as far as TW’s go… So I started reading a new book last week called Healing Developmental Trauma, by Laurence Heller.  I’m only about halfway through it (or less), ...

My Current Attachment Mess

This post is probably going to be a mess because basically I’m trying to work some things out mentally, and if you haven’t noticed by now, I process by writing. Stay or go, whichever.  I’ve worked to make this post more generic, because although I don’t know most of my readers personally, I do have ...

On holidays and chaotic working models

Since the holidays are here, I’ve had a couple good conversations with people about what they do – or don’t – like about them.  Interestingly and unsurprisingly, their current feelings have everything to do with how things were during the holidays in their childhood.  If they had happy experiences back then, with traditions they enjoyed, ...

Multiplicity and Medical Care

****TW**** This post contains some mild discussion of d*ctors, medical issues/procedures, ritual ab*se, psychosomatic symptoms, etc. And also one mention of a very minor injury (minor, but bl**d is involved in the story)…                                 This is my first time publishing ...

Baby Memories

I wrote this in shorthand (which I expanded for the post) last night while I was laying in bed trying not to lose my mind.  I think some of the turbulence this year is from having gone deeper into my system than ever, and being in contact with some of the youngest and perhaps most ...

in the dark

I really wanted to write something useful today, but I can’t.  It’s just at a point where I’m simply trying to stay out of the hospital.  The season hit me fast and hard and early and unexpectedly this year, and I can’t fully say why, and I can’t really explain anything because I don’t understand ...

Internal Landscapes

Recently the subject of internal landscapes came up, so I thought I would write a little about it for the benefit of those who do not have D.I.D…or even those who do, if they want to join the discussion.  😉 So, what a lot of people who do not have D.I.D. don’t always understand is ...

The Attachment Link, Part 3

Hopefully this will be the final post in this series, because WOW LONG AND OVERWHELMING THREADS OF CEREBRAL INFORMATION.  STOP IT, JADE.  STICK TO BUTTERFLIES AND RAINBOWS AND HOW WONDERFUL WE ARE.  Okay, okay. I’ll try.  🙂 Before I get into the last part of the interplay of trauma, dissociation, and disorganized attachment, I want ...