Pregnancy and Loss in RA

Pregnancy and Loss in RA
CONTENT WARNING:  ****This post is heavier than most writings I do. Please read with care, or come back to it another time, or never (if it’s not something you wish to know or think about).  Mentions: RA, pregnancy, infant loss, r*pe (indirectly), ab*rtion, ETC – may be other topics mentioned as well****       ...

The Damage Done by Media Portrayals of Trauma

The Damage Done by Media Portrayals of Trauma
Everyone knows the media has a HUGE influence on cultural beliefs, attitudes, and mindsets. I’m honestly not sure how it is in other countries, but here in America, whoever controls the media pretty much controls the minds of most Americans. One thing I noticed even as a kid, when watching shows like Full House, was the ...

Separating Lies from Truth – Negative Beliefs that Keep Us Trapped

Separating Lies from Truth – Negative Beliefs that Keep Us Trapped
I’ve been trying to find time to put this in words for awhile, and time just keeps escaping me. Busy season is coming up for me at work, so hopefully I can get this put out there before everything crashes in on me. Okay, so one thing that a lot of people may not understand ...

“The Shining Man” Review, Part 2

I’m going to try to make this more brief than the previous one. I just want to reiterate what I said yesterday:  Jesus does not force people to do anything they don’t want to do. He doesn’t send his angels to force anyone, either. He doesn’t take alters’ clothes away, or lock them up on ...

The SRA/TBMC Controversy, Revisited

*****TW*****  I have tried to make this as non-triggering as possible. But if you’re a survivor, read with care.                         As you probably already know, there are still various debates going on, and schools of thought about, Dissociative Identity Disorder and its relation to ...

Recovering

It’s been a distressing few weeks, but I’m holding on.  It seems like every upward shift comes with its own opposition. And oftentimes, though there are real external circumstances going haywire, nevertheless the biggest turmoil is internal. Some days, I don’t know how to honorably stand up under it. I think what I’m realizing more and ...

The Trouble with Triggers

I realize that talking about triggers might be…um…triggering, but in that vein, I made up something pretty ridiculous in order to tone it down.  And once again, I am trying to work some things out, mentally, so I’m mostly writing to see if I can come to a better conclusion than I had come to ...

Multiplicity and Medical Care

****TW**** This post contains some mild discussion of d*ctors, medical issues/procedures, ritual ab*se, psychosomatic symptoms, etc. And also one mention of a very minor injury (minor, but bl**d is involved in the story)…                                 This is my first time publishing ...

Baby Memories

I wrote this in shorthand (which I expanded for the post) last night while I was laying in bed trying not to lose my mind.  I think some of the turbulence this year is from having gone deeper into my system than ever, and being in contact with some of the youngest and perhaps most ...

in the dark

I really wanted to write something useful today, but I can’t.  It’s just at a point where I’m simply trying to stay out of the hospital.  The season hit me fast and hard and early and unexpectedly this year, and I can’t fully say why, and I can’t really explain anything because I don’t understand ...

Internal Landscapes

Recently the subject of internal landscapes came up, so I thought I would write a little about it for the benefit of those who do not have D.I.D…or even those who do, if they want to join the discussion.  😉 So, what a lot of people who do not have D.I.D. don’t always understand is ...

Normal Life, Workday Mode

I don’t generally write anything all that personal on this blog, and TBH I have no idea why I wrote this. But it’s a departure from the norm, and at least half of my life decisions are categorized under “What the hell,” rather than a carefully thought-out plan. So…here it is. I think I hope ...

The Attachment Link, Part 2

This blog post is a continuation of the previous discussion on attachment theory and its influence on the development of dissociative responses, as it relates to both early interactions with the parents AND experiences in the life of the person in question.  I’m just going to pick up where I left off, and if you’re confused, you ...

The Attachment Link, Part 1

I’m about to throw a LOT of information at you.  I’m actually going to break it up into multiple posts, to make it easier.  We’ll see if it takes 2 or 3. Try to bear with me, because I really think this stuff is vitally important. And if you disagree, I am certainly open to ...

Things That Will Keep You From Healing

Based on the chart I posted in my last blog post, I started thinking about some of these things, and figured I’d share it. This is a tricky post to get right, because the tone makes all the difference.  I want you to understand that I am only writing these things to HELP…not hurt, or ...

Deep Inner Decisions that Allow Survivors to Heal

This is a chart by Ellen Lacter that I found on this website, which all survivors should read WITH CAUTION. POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING MATERIAL.  I thought this chart was so helpful that I printed it and taped it to my bathroom mirror.  As I run through the checklist here, I can easily identify some areas where ...

About Integration

I have written about integration a little bit on my website, but I thought I would re-visit it here, just for kicks. The American Association for Marriage and Family Therapy, in their article about D.I.D., says: “The main goal for treatment is the integration of the separate personality states into one cohesive, unified personality…”  In ...

J8’s Take on “The Myth of Sanity”

The Myth of Sanity (by Martha Stout) – my own review I want to make it clear before I start writing that disagreement can be respectful, and that’s always how I intend to be. Nothing I’m about to say is meant to disrespect anyone else in any way. I have a different opinion (what else is ...

Guest Post – Chloe

This probably needs a TRIGGER WARNING, even though we always try to keep things unspecific.  (S)RA/MC is mentioned in this post, as is Freemas*nry, pr*gramming, s*icide, and s*lf-m*tilation, etc.  If these words are problematic for you, be cautious or feel free to navigate away from this post.  If you are okay with reading/seeing those words, ...