Book Review in progress: Healing Developmental Trauma

Hey everybody. This is a pretty cerebral post (which ironically is a confirmation of my survival style, if you keep reading…haha), so I think we’re safe as far as TW’s go… So I started reading a new book last week called Healing Developmental Trauma, by Laurence Heller.  I’m only about halfway through it (or less), ...

Multiplicity and Medical Care

****TW**** This post contains some mild discussion of d*ctors, medical issues/procedures, ritual ab*se, psychosomatic symptoms, etc. And also one mention of a very minor injury (minor, but bl**d is involved in the story)…                                 This is my first time publishing ...

Things I Don’t Say

I’m so sorry I haven’t posted in such a long time.  I’m in the peak of the busy season at my job, and that – plus my own personal cyclical chaos – has made it impossible to find the time or the wherewithal.  Now that my own seasonal issues are receding a bit, I have ...

in the dark

I really wanted to write something useful today, but I can’t.  It’s just at a point where I’m simply trying to stay out of the hospital.  The season hit me fast and hard and early and unexpectedly this year, and I can’t fully say why, and I can’t really explain anything because I don’t understand ...

Subliminal Messaging, Disney, and MC/Programming

***TW***  This post has the potential to be triggering.  If you have been subjected to MC/Pr*gramming, RA/SRA, and/or find topics like D*sney, subliminal messaging via the media, s*x add*ction, etc, triggering, please exit the post or read with caution…                   Can a “normal” person become “programmed” by ...

Internal Landscapes

Recently the subject of internal landscapes came up, so I thought I would write a little about it for the benefit of those who do not have D.I.D…or even those who do, if they want to join the discussion.  😉 So, what a lot of people who do not have D.I.D. don’t always understand is ...

Normal Life, Workday Mode

I don’t generally write anything all that personal on this blog, and TBH I have no idea why I wrote this. But it’s a departure from the norm, and at least half of my life decisions are categorized under “What the hell,” rather than a carefully thought-out plan. So…here it is. I think I hope ...

Deep Inner Decisions that Allow Survivors to Heal

This is a chart by Ellen Lacter that I found on this website, which all survivors should read WITH CAUTION. POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING MATERIAL.  I thought this chart was so helpful that I printed it and taped it to my bathroom mirror.  As I run through the checklist here, I can easily identify some areas where ...

About Integration

I have written about integration a little bit on my website, but I thought I would re-visit it here, just for kicks. The American Association for Marriage and Family Therapy, in their article about D.I.D., says: “The main goal for treatment is the integration of the separate personality states into one cohesive, unified personality…”  In ...

J8’s Take on “The Myth of Sanity”

The Myth of Sanity (by Martha Stout) – my own review I want to make it clear before I start writing that disagreement can be respectful, and that’s always how I intend to be. Nothing I’m about to say is meant to disrespect anyone else in any way. I have a different opinion (what else is ...

Guest Post – Chloe

This probably needs a TRIGGER WARNING, even though we always try to keep things unspecific.  (S)RA/MC is mentioned in this post, as is Freemas*nry, pr*gramming, s*icide, and s*lf-m*tilation, etc.  If these words are problematic for you, be cautious or feel free to navigate away from this post.  If you are okay with reading/seeing those words, ...

Working With Multiple Systems

These are just some thoughts off the top of my head, as to how to work with a multiple and their system.  I’m writing this for therapists, counselors, and/or anyone else (even friends) who attempts to relate to or work with a multiple and their system.  As always, this is not meant to be exhaustive, and ...

Double Binds

**TW**  Some mild discussion of ritual abuse is included in this post.  I have made it generic.  But read with caution, if you are a survivor and/or are not in a good place emotionally.                               Double binds are something that everyone ...

Trauma-Based Mind Control **TW**

TRIGGER WARNING:  I have specifically made this blog a place where very few graphic details have or will ever be discussed, and this post is no exception. HOWEVER. Some people find that even certain words can be problematic.  This is a post where that may be the case.  I have not included ANY graphic details ...

Why I Write

I’m working on a post for later today, but I wanted to take a minute and ask a favor from all who have read my blog.  If you have found it useful, enjoyable, relevant to you or someone you know, or informative (or all 4! woohoo!), can you please take a minute and “Like” the ...

Types of Inside People

Someone recently asked me if I could write about a certain type of inside person, because they wanted information about it, so in keeping with this request, I am going to babble about this subject for a bit.  I have provided plenty of links within this post if you want to know more people’s opinions ...

The Protectors

I’m deviating from what I’d planned, because this subject matter is easier, I can churn it out faster for the readership, and because I need a few more days (the weekend, probably) to consolidate the other stuff I wanted to write. So, Protectors. Just about every system has one, or sometimes a group, of these.  ...

Object Constancy

I really, really don’t want my blog to read like a cheap psychology journal.  It probably does, but that’s not my intent.  I do think psychology comes into play with D.I.D., but I don’t think psychology itself is the answer to life’s problems.  I believe Jesus is the answer, and has the answers.  He knows ...

“False” Memories

I have mentioned in passing that I doubt even the validity of my own “memories,” for various reasons that are too significant to overlook.  I’m not sure if I can concisely explain why, but here’s the best I can do.  I have no answers…only questions. The biggest reason I doubt is this: other than the ...