On holidays and chaotic working models

Since the holidays are here, I’ve had a couple good conversations with people about what they do – or don’t – like about them.  Interestingly and unsurprisingly, their current feelings have everything to do with how things were during the holidays in their childhood.  If they had happy experiences back then, with traditions they enjoyed, ...

Multiplicity and Medical Care

****TW**** This post contains some mild discussion of d*ctors, medical issues/procedures, ritual ab*se, psychosomatic symptoms, etc. And also one mention of a very minor injury (minor, but bl**d is involved in the story)…                                 This is my first time publishing ...

The Void: dissociation, amnesia, and identity

Instead of quoting the entire post, I’m re-blogging because it’s just such a well-written, clear description of some of the lesser known struggles of multiples. Even those who are not multiples sometimes struggle with a cohesive sense of self and their own story. I could relate to almost everything written here, but I’ve never been ...

Multiplicity and Love

I thought this was pretty awesome, and not just applicable to romance but really any relationship with someone that’s deep enough that you’re going to let them know you’re a multiple. Sarah is pretty amazing about breaking these things down. I strongly encourage you to follow her blog!

Things I Don’t Say

I’m so sorry I haven’t posted in such a long time.  I’m in the peak of the busy season at my job, and that – plus my own personal cyclical chaos – has made it impossible to find the time or the wherewithal.  Now that my own seasonal issues are receding a bit, I have ...

Link

No words today. Maybe this will help / inform. ~J8 TW – Halloween…could not reblog from phone so here is a link. http://discussingdissociation.com/2014/10/30/the-layers-of-halloween-weekend-2/

Baby Memories

I wrote this in shorthand (which I expanded for the post) last night while I was laying in bed trying not to lose my mind.  I think some of the turbulence this year is from having gone deeper into my system than ever, and being in contact with some of the youngest and perhaps most ...

in the dark

I really wanted to write something useful today, but I can’t.  It’s just at a point where I’m simply trying to stay out of the hospital.  The season hit me fast and hard and early and unexpectedly this year, and I can’t fully say why, and I can’t really explain anything because I don’t understand ...

The Disney Follow-Up Post

****TW**** This has pretty much the same trigger warning as the last blog post about D*sney, MC/pr*gramming, S*tanism, etc.  Subliminal messaging, television/movies/media is discussed.                   Well, I already knew that there are tons of smarter people out there who should be writing blogs rather than (or at ...

About Eating Disorders

This is an excellent post about some of the complexities of eating disorders. I, along with quite a few other people I know, have struggled with an eating disorder (and continue to), although the seriousness of it has been denied and dismissed to the point where I just don’t pay attention to it anymore. It’s ...

Subliminal Messaging, Disney, and MC/Programming

***TW***  This post has the potential to be triggering.  If you have been subjected to MC/Pr*gramming, RA/SRA, and/or find topics like D*sney, subliminal messaging via the media, s*x add*ction, etc, triggering, please exit the post or read with caution…                   Can a “normal” person become “programmed” by ...

Crazy Fall

(some rambling) Well, I knew it was going to happen sooner or later:  the random post that consists entirely of rabbit trails. You guys have bore (born? beared? …attention, grammar Nazis…plz respond) with me through my other posts that have been at least pseudo-coherent (I hope?), so now I present to you:  this one. I ...

Internal Landscapes

Recently the subject of internal landscapes came up, so I thought I would write a little about it for the benefit of those who do not have D.I.D…or even those who do, if they want to join the discussion.  😉 So, what a lot of people who do not have D.I.D. don’t always understand is ...

Album Review – The Undoing (Steffany Gretzinger)

I don’t usually review albums on this blog, and I probably never will again. I’m making an exception, because this album is truly exceptional. It’s one of the most amazing sets of songs I’ve ever heard, actually.  Enormous thanks to the people who pointed me toward it, if they ever end up reading this…you know ...

Normal Life, Workday Mode

I don’t generally write anything all that personal on this blog, and TBH I have no idea why I wrote this. But it’s a departure from the norm, and at least half of my life decisions are categorized under “What the hell,” rather than a carefully thought-out plan. So…here it is. I think I hope ...